I Want Candy!
Sunday, September 11, 2011
can't sleep
what do you do when you have insomnia? i took a one hour nap this afternoon. i tried to sleep at midnight. granted, i had a sharing tonight so my heart was still beating fast before i went to bed... but i was still tossing and turning by 1:30 and turned on my computer. now it's 2:00. i need to get up at 8:00... ahh. when i have insomnia, i go on the computer and email and even went to facebook.
it's 9-11 already! i still remember that fateful day, my junior year in college. I normally never turn on the TV in the morning, but for some reason, I did that day. i remember watching the news showing the crashes, and it was surreal. it took some time to sink in. i still went to class. i remember that afternoon, my asian american studies class was not cancelled (most others were) and my teacher was criticized for it.
i remember the memorial on memorial glade. was that 10 years ago? Wow.
Saturday, September 10, 2011
Time to get moving
Well - had another day of being beaten down yesterday. 10 years in the working world - I can't believe it's taken me this long to realize that there are so many people in the world that are easily fooled by a show. I've always been a firm believer in doing a good job - doing the best you can - for you. Don't worry about what anyone else thinks - if they notice great! If not, you're still satisfied and pleased with what you've done. Well, I'm now realizing that in my current place - that doesn't get you anywhere. Because I love this industry, because I have great friends who work throughout the entire industry, because I'm smart - I have been very successful in this industry. But that's not enough. So... after all of the years of interning, after all of the years of being a supertemp, after all of the nights and weekend - it may be time to hang up my hat. I want to feel fulfilled by my work - not empty. I want to feel invigorated - not exhausted. I want to feel part of a team - not like a lone wolf.
In the end, more than anything - I am grateful for the day that I met my husband and how that completely changed my perspective on life. I'm not married to my job or defined by my job. I have someone else in my life that makes me whole. So it's time to find something else more inspiring and sane to keep me going during the day!
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
new start - again.
wow. new start again. am i getting too old for this? too old. still kinda scary. new town, new roads, a stranger again. don't know where anything is or how to get around. new kid on the block. thankful for the gps that brought me to tj's. thankful for sandwich and salad for dinner. thankful for a nice landlady who shares everything in the house with me. tomorrow: costco run for a fastrak and a brita!!!
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
i have an idea
trying to accomodate central's people as much as possible...we've invited 100 of their guests at this point! at least we have no more people - it's just waiting for responses to come back. SO...perhaps someone (maybe you??) could send out an email reminder to everyone to send their RSVPs if they haven't yet so we can give our numbers to the hotel. what do you think? bridesmaid duty!!! MAXING OUT THE PARTY WITH ASIANS! :P kidding - it will be great! lemme know what you think of this idea and i will propose it to central?
here's a link to something i was reading tonight: http://www.weddingwire.com/wedding-advice/rsvp-help/0c604e2211f5cd54.html
hoping to get to see my dress this weekend...fixed!! it's SO close...i can't believe it fits! i don't know what to do with my hair...maybe straight?? wavy?? ahhhh and makeup...i need help finding someone!!
Friday, June 05, 2009
more updates!
sooo....went to get the size 10 dress altered last week! here's a pic of how LARGE it is! it's pinned up on the sides but wow - i look like a whale! :P anyway, next saturday i'll go back to see it slimmed down! can you even tell my china direct is under there? yikes! still have to figure out the veil...hey - when are you coming back? maybe you can pick one up for me and bring it back - the REAL china direct!
last night we had our tasting at the hotel for the reception. ben got his first taste of dad's "baked potato, mashed potatoes, rice pilaf" indecision! the food will be good i think!
invitations went out today...no turning back! i'm actually feeling good now. the whole bridal shower drama really threw me for a loop and was very unnecessarily stressful as it's the one event that i should have nothing to think about and all of this drama caused by someone who i thought was a friend but really was only thinking about herself! anyway, i can be thankful that this has been the only drama so far - and we're 2 months away!
well, i hope you book your ticket home soon... remember i'm your ticket home! :P gotta get ready for the fun times ahead!
Monday, May 18, 2009
flowers
forgot the more important update! we have a florist! I think I sent you this link before but here is who we are working with: http://www.ezaiflowers.com/
all of the big details are locked down!
people are crazy
well, i FINALLY had my first taste of true wedding drama. and the drama is actually more friend (i.e., former friend) drama than wedding drama. my now ex-h.s. friend heather, the bridesmaid who "dropped out," kept on asking to throw me a shower and finally i gave in and let her do it. she sent out the invites this week and then yesterday flipped out for no reason and decided she didn't want to do the shower anymore. cancelled the reservation at the venue and sent me a nasty email that came out of nowhere!
luckily, the other bridesmaids are ready to spring to action and salvage things - sort of annoying but glad i won't have to deal with an annoying person anymore who i think, in the end, was trying to throw the shower for herself rather than for me! i called her to try to get to the bottom of things and be a "rational" adult but, she is not returning my call. no more mr. nice guy here! she can be rude all she wants and change plans all she wants on a whim but she won't have a friend like me. she's always been a bit of drama - and now she's going to lose one of the few people who will still even talk to her. IM me when you have time and we'll catch up. i was really upset yesterday because she was so irrational then today i was annoyed and now i actually am relieved. oy!
