I Want Candy!
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
what does it mean?
what if i like to do nice things for him? like i found out he likes vietnamese sandwiches and last week i brought him some for dinner and today i got him some more (different ones) to have for lunch tomorrow. i don't want to think this means i am leading him on, because if we were only friends, then i would definitely do it. ugh. so confusing. i think i am being swayed by too many people with different opinions. like pple who know him say he is such a nice guy, etc. and point out all the good qualities. those who don't know him mostly talk about the distance factor, the age thing, etc. so i don't know. once again it seems like a smart choice, but then again, that's not a good reason to start something. someone else said so what if i do see him as a companion, that's good enough reason. and i don't know about that. ahh!! actually, i am quite at peace about it, because i am not rushing into things even tho there is little time left. part of me wishes i could figure it out. the other part of me wants to be patient and wait on God to show me what He wants. I think that's what i should be doing, no matter how long it takes. i believe it will work! i'll let you know.
Monday, April 25, 2005
let's start at the very beginning
a very good place to start!
by the way, the funnel cake looks goooooooood! MMMM... i still crave those waffles you used to get. what will i do! :(
okay, well central does not know about the fbf and i don't think they'll ever meet him. i know he wants to meet them though! but no way. the reason he is an fbf and not a bf is because he often says things that one should not say. and i know he doesn't mean it but it is EXTREME and hurtful! and when you step back and think - it doesn't make sense. and it was said without thought. BUT still mean nonetheless. the musician calls the fbf my abusive husband. he's definitely not abusive but again, says the wrong things very often! he can be fun and i do think he is a good guy and will be great for someone some day but not me. but definitely a good person to learn from and have fun with! and that's all...i'm not ready to get married but at the same time i'm not going to deprive myself of the fun of dating! it can be fun.
and i didn't mean to kiss the guy - just to think about it. like when you are having stomach pains and you don't know if it's because you're hungry or if it's something else. if you think about food and nothing changes then you know it's something else. is that a bad analogy?
wish i had more pics so i could update my page more often!
Sunday, April 24, 2005
nice pics and poetry!
i have even more questions for you. do you like the fbf? why is he only an fbf? i assume he likes you. what would central say. what does central know.
and in response to your suggestion - i'm not ready for that yet. but thanks for the good intentions.
i called my saturday night and indeed a package did arrive! thanks!!! :) i spent 2 nights in san jose and just got home today. had a weekend of FUN!
too bad my camera ran out of batteries but here are some pics:
http://www.imagestation.com/album/?id=2127656513
imagestation is bad bc it eats captions. lotsa good food. pumpkin cheesecake. macadamia nut banana pancakes. funnel cake. green tea floats (no pic). 2 cherry blossom festivals in cupertino/san jose and sf. claustrophobia.
a day at the races!
http://www.geocities.com/sleepyfroggie/santaanita.html
i'm a poet and i really didn't know it!
advice from the fbf
so i was talking to the fbf last night about your situation. we came up with a solution to your dilemma of not being able to tell if you want to be more than friends with him. visualize kissing him! and if that makes you want to puke - then you are just friends. but if it is something that you would want to do, then there might be something there. and the only way to know is to do it. BUT be wary. the relationship will DEFINITELY change after that. so make sure before you make a move!
i think this is good advice! what do you think?
Friday, April 22, 2005
what is wrong
i crave sugar all the time. last night i drove to tj's just for cookies. today i have one thing on my mind - sour candy. i was hungry for lunch already at like 9am and this after having smart start for breakfast at 7. i think there's a tapeworm? but eeww, how did it get there? i dunno what is wrong. :(
you make it sound so easy.
Thursday, April 21, 2005
the answer
wisdom? you don't need wisdom. some people just want people to tell them what they want to hear. so i will do it! what you want to hear is: it is okay to say you don't like someone. there will be another person - this is not your only chance.
see? i feel better already!
tj
i just went to traders joe to get cookies!! i crave cookies like no other. i got the vegan trail mix ones and they are GOOD!!! the bag of oranges are sweet too.
i am still confused. i need wisdom. :(
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
mm
oooh i LOVE cupcakes. i think i will make some soon. i bought the frosting with the sprinkles! and i have a big sprinkles assortment thingy. i love sprinkles! cupcakes make me think of citizen cupcake. or citizen cake. i watched this mtv diary thing with katie holmes once and she bought cupcakes in ny and gave one to her chauffer.
weird dreams. 2 nights ago i dreamt that there was some flood in my bedroom because some pipe in the bathroom leaked. or the toilet overflowed or something. then i had to call in sick for work. i think i was a construction worker? it was weird. around a construction site.
then last night i dreamt that we were at church and we moved the soundboard. i think we finally watched a movie i wanted to see for a long time (maybe bc there were talks of seeing hotel rwanda). then my friend melody was like running us in this pew and it was scary because i almost got squashed (but she kept rolling it all around the room) and i thought i would hurt my neck and become a quadriplegic like in million dollar baby. stephanie s was in the dream and i haven't thought about her in a long time. what is this bizarro-ness?!
Monday, April 18, 2005
i keep
looking up names on the zabasearch...i'm obsessed! and wired on blue and gold jelly beans! help!!
Sunday, April 17, 2005
i have a scary too!
that was scary. but even scarier - someone from prison keeps calling here trying to make a collect call. on caller id it says "prison" and "inmate."
aHHHHHHHHHHHH
Friday, April 15, 2005
freaky
yo
this is scary
http://sfgate.com/cgi-bin/article.cgi?f=/c/a/2005/04/15/BUG3JC8U341.DTL&type=tech
then go to
www.zabasearch.com
i checked out the satellite images of addresses but they all seem to be from 2004.
Thursday, April 14, 2005
you HAVE trail mix
WELL...................................... (eyebrows raised)
last night my friend made a steak stuffed with spinach and mushrooms and stuffed mushrooms (with potatos and spinach and garlic) and mashed potatoes. for dessert, he cut a coconut in half and used it as a bowl to serve the pineapple coconut ice cream I brought, and added kiwi and pineapple. Talk about presentation! :O
Yesterday, I made spinach salad with rotisserie chicken, mandarin oranges, avocado, raspberry walnut vinagrette, and my own homemade carmelized sliced almonds. Served with garlic and Cheese bread from andronico's. and he brought dessert- a really good hazelnut-filled pastry that we split and had with macadamia nut ice cream. mmm!
who said they would post pictures? where? when?
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
i want TRAIL MIX
i'm eating a great treal mix right now from trader joe's - simply macadamias, cashews, and pineapple. have you had that? yummmmy!!
anyway good luck with your sales - i'm sure they'll go better than mine as i had a 0 rating.
right now i'm watching america's top model. a friend of mine says there is a girl on there that reminds him of me - except she's blond and from the south. i don't know why! so i'm watching.
remember mr. robot and the well lady?
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
selling!
yesterday i posted my bass amp and my prom dress on craigslist. this is so exciting! i hope people will buy them!! :)
Monday, April 11, 2005
crazy weekend
i will post pics later on the website but the weekend was ke-ray-zee! saturday was a day at the races! and sunday was golfing in pasadena - it is hard! and that was about it. it doesn't sound like a lot but there were meals and a lot of driving involved as well. i am tiiiiired...
Sunday, April 10, 2005
Friday, April 08, 2005
Thursday, April 07, 2005
AVRil
I'M LISTENING RIGHT NOW - "La, la la la la" "Cuz life's like this" "Chill out whatcha yellin for"
MY FAVE KARAOKE SONG.
Well, I have to go to work at 7:30am tomorrow so I'm trying not to be too excited right now or I'll never sleep and be tired. And I'm preparing for DAY AT THE RACES on Saturday! I will take pics!!! (the fbf will be there!)
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
tired
i'm SO tired. i just got home - long day again!
lunch was great today. i went to the mall and got a coke and sushi. yummm... then i went to a screening with my boss tonight at paseo colorado then to the ritz carlton huntington hotel for a screening afterwards...
and this weekend - a day at the races! santa anita race track for the first time ever.
by the way - i don't care about the powder!!! :)
cal day
come for cal day? april 16! my friend is supposed to come that wknd from sf. and i guess it's too late for the 14-day advanced sw tix. but cal day!!!
Cal Day offers something for all visitors
More than 35,000 people are expected on Saturday, April 16, for Cal Day at UC Berkeley. The annual open house is known for its non-stop activities, including tours, lectures, music and sports performances, and hands-on exhibits.
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
Monday, April 04, 2005
COLDSTONE!
i know it's a rival but i just have to say COLDSTONE IS SOOO GOOOOOOD!!!
i had a coldstone banana caramel crunch and that might seriously be my favorite new flavor! you would like it - no chocolate! sweet cream, REAL sliced bananas (so it's not too sweeet), caramel, and almonds.... yummy yummy!
this past week i saw so many movies - "the wedding date," "guess who," "hitch." all free from work! last night my friend had an impromptu bbq which was fun! except there were too many desserts so he sent me home with all of them! and so i brought them to work today. and everybody loved me!!! yay!!!
